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Friday, November 12, 2004

Real Life Movies???

Okay, so I ran accross this post when I was following some links from a friend's blog. Wow. This is something you only hear unfold like this on the big screen...or is it? How many times do we not really take that chance for fear. Fear.

Enjoy...




I have a
CRUSH

... I'm talking about a real CRUSH, like the kind you can feel, smell, have memories with, talk too and she talks back, I'm not talking about a crush you find inside a magazine or on Entertainment tonight, online, or on a porno site...lol... You guys know what I'm talking about, your 1st REAL CRUSH on someone that you actually know or knew... What did you do about your CRUSH?? ... I'll tell you what I did with mine... I never told her how I felt...

... Years ago , while growing up on Seneca Street there was this girl that lived across the street... She was a year younger than me, her name is Jackie... My parents sent me to a private catholic school while her parents sent her to a public school... When my parents had an all important meeting, or were out of town, I had to catch 2 buses to get to my school... Jackie had to only walk 4 blocks to get to hers... I'm not sure when it happened, but we started to talk everyday and I mean everyday,... after school we would sit on the curb infront of her house and talk about our parents, school and friends... She was from Argentina, had a natural light tan, green eyes and blonde hair...her nose would wrinkle up everytime she was about to punch you in the arm or chase you around a few cars....hahaha we were so young then... I of course was overweight, a dork, kinda shy and unsure of myself... but man could I talk, and I was witty and more imporantly her and I had some kinda connection...

... Years went by, I grew taller and thinner, she grew a pair of boobs, my voice got deeper, she began to use lipstick and smelled like vanilla ice cream, I began to shave, she dressed differently and her hair was dyed a different color, I began to play sports , she bagan to get phone calls from boys, we began to lead different lives, the kind that wasn't confined to a street curb, or a walk to del taco for lunch or a walk to the liquor store for some chips...we had grown up... I got a car, she would get rides, I dated girls, she would sneak out to see boys ( her parents were very strick)... I don't quite remember when it happened, but just like that, we didn't talk as much anymore...but thru all our growing up on Seneca Street... Jackie was my first Crush...

... I never told Jackie how I felt about her... We went out 1 time, to the movies, but her younger brother tagged along... I remember being nervous sitting there at the movies with her...thinking to myself how can I tell her how I feel , what would she think of me?...oh man to have those butterflies again like that...hahaha....In HS, I would see Jackie with her friends, we would always stop and talk a lil bit as we passed... she had her other friends and so did I, plus I had sports everyday, all day... When I graduated HS, I invited Jackie to my graduation then to our family celebration dinner at a restaurant, she was there laughing along with all of us...

... This past weekend I saw Jackie... We ran into eachother at a bank in LA, about 3 miles from Seneca Street... I knew it was her instantly, she is so pretty...she didn't recognize me at 1st, until I said her name...she opened her arms and half cackled a laugh while saying my name and we hugged eachother...a long hug, the kind you give to your 1st crush or a long lost friend... We started to talk and catch up, eventually we sat under a tree on some concrete benches and summerized eachothers life for the last million years... She has been married once and now divorced, with no kids... I told her that I almost proposed once but it would have been for the wrong reasons... She ended up going to away to college, and has recently moved back to LA... She is now working for a law office and is co-owner of a boutique... I told her about how great my stocks and property investments have done and that I now live in san diego...

... Then I looked at her and saw the Jackie that I knew so many years ago... and I finally told her...I told her that I had the biggest crush on her, I told her that I had sometimes thought of how "cool" it would have been to be her boyfriend and to hang out at school, at del taco haha , at the mall, just anywhere with her...I told her that I did regret at the time of never sticking my head out and saying how I felt about her... she smiled , laughed, then she told me that she felt the same way... ARE YOU KIDDING ME????, I told her....WHY?...didn't you say anything, I said... she smiled and said, maybe for the same reasons YOU never told me... I just sat there and shook my head... She wondered why I wouldn't ask her out....even in HS, she would wonder... she remembered parties we would both be at and we would talk but nothing ever happened... so she just thought I liked her only as a friend, so she never said anything to me either...

... She's got my number and now I have hers, we said "we'll keep in touch" ... we've said that phrase to eachother so many times before and we never do...hmmmm maybe this time we'll mean it... we said our goodbyes... and as we leaned toward eachother to hug and a kiss on the cheek...she turned my head and gave me a warm kiss on the mouth and said as she's turned to leave, " I've always wanted to do that"...

... There I was standing, a grown man feeling a blush coming on, watching my CRUSH walking away from me .......again...

...EVERYONE be good to the ones that you love, never assume anything, never hold back your feelings...you just never know.... Ty


2 whatevers:

Joel said...

Haha! Boy, I've got some phone number hunting to do! Just kidding!

Chris Poteet said...

That was interesting. True evidence of how powerful two human beings can have together.

In high school, I had a crush on this girl for years. I moved around a lot; I moved from Europe to Tipp City and then to Versailles where I went to high school and graduated from.

It started around 5th grade (sounds simliar to the above story), and I was always taken aback by her for years, in fact, until we graduated.

In the last week of our senior year, she gave me her senior book and asked me to write in it. I took it into study hall and started to think about what I was to write to her. After some thought, I decided to tell her that I had such a profound interest in her for so many years. After all, I wasn't going to see her again right?

I remember pulling out the paper and writing a long note explaining everything I had loved in her character, personality, and the affinity I had felt between us.

Well, it was interesting to see her at a graduation party a few nights later and asking: "so, did you get my letter in your book?" (rhetorical of course). She blushed in a big group of friends, and they all started laughing.

Well...it didn't bother me, because I thought that would be the end of that. But what happened? Ah...she ended up going to the same college as I (WSU). I've met with her and spoken with her a few times. It's been fun, we both laugh about it now.

Affinity never ceases; if it did, it never existed in the first place.